And this is an excellent response

Dear DNC,

I truly "support" Democrats being elected in 2010 and 2012. I am a "fierce advocate" of the Democratic Party after all. I know that I have promised you my support over the past few decades and have done my best to follow through.

Even now I am "working towards" a financial donation to the Party. I do have to ask for your "patience" though, because as a gay man, my family and I are still second class citizens and are having to funnel our resources towards causes that protect and honor our basic civil rights. "We have a lot on our plate."

We are "proceeding" towards lifting the denial of funds to the DNC and are "developing a strategy" that will get us there by the end of Obama's time at the White House. As a matter of fact, my family has planned several "meetings" to discuss these very important donations and will be sending out a press release shortly to announce our "cocktail party" celebrating Democracy.

Thanks for understanding. And hang in there!

Sincerely,
Liam

With thanks to the author, and Americablog.

OK... I get to hear three words I don't wanna hear.. Happy Pride, everybody...

And I do not want it, no way, no how.

And YES, I'm fucking grouchy and mean, and the Grinch.

There is a bunch of Bosnians or somewhere like that who partied across the court all night, woke me up at 3 am, and drove me nuts. For starters. I was young once, but every week is a bit much. Weird music, women going Oooh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh OH' half the night. W. slept though it and snored.

And woke up to find me pointing my finger to the noise and saying, 'Bang! Just... Bang!'

So he said, 'Who do you think you are, Charles Bronson?'

And I said, 'Fucking right!. Don't they ever go to bed and SLEEP?'

Whereupon we talked for a while.

Near daybreak, well after that, it comes very early right now, gets light at four a.m., He made a decision to go to his appartment, and get some things. I finally got some shut-eye.

Woke up thinking he wasn't back yet, but he was there, sofa critter, snoring on the cusions.

And it was really really late, so had to get to Peter's, and make his dinner.

W. woke up while I was being hectic. And then he said the three words I did not want to hear. 'I love you.'

Gaaawwwd! (whoever she is) That was not what I wanted to hear at all. Ever.

If I am confusing him, I am NOT doing what I intended. I mean, I have never even touched him, let alone look at him in a lascivious way. Have gone out of my way to give him his privacy, and never EVER thought of him in a sexual context. (Ok, I saw his hiney once when I thought he was elsewhere, and it was embarrassing, and commented on it at the time.) But I have never checked out what Steven Colbert calls his 'joy basket'. Never interested me.
He has always been just a nice friend.

Therefore the utter shock, I tell you, SHOCK, at that statement.

On the other hand, I do not want to know what it cost him to say that. But it fucking freaked me out.

Ok, nice to know. Someone 'lurves' you. Am left fucking spitless, how COULD anyone do that?

All I feel is old and useless.

I really, really do not need more complications in my life, you know?

And especially coming from him, who was always so negative, but I'm the exception to the rule? I don't want to go there.

I've just been trying to get him back on his feet and be self-sufficient.

I thought retirement was supposed to be your quiet time, to reflect on your life, what you thought you achieved, and to study and become even better.

No one ever told me it would just be 'another fine adventure'.

But it was very nice to hear someone tell you they love you on this day of all days, someone who is the same sex.

Confusing? Gawwd...

Forty Years.....

We often have a show on tee-vee called Zeitzeugen. Witnesses of a time. People who were at an event that was seminal in changing things. Steven Colbert interviewed Jim Fouratt who was at the Stonewall Inn forty years ago, which changed much in the world. Admirably, he was rather subdued. For Steven.... But it was a fascinating interview. For a young person in the 60's struggling to find a true identity at the time, I wish that there had been positive examples I would have wished to emulate, so progress was made. But it isn't over, and forty years is a very long time to want to not feel somehow inferior.

Back then, we didn't have role models. We thought we were somehow 'different' and non-functional. We got left out of a lot of things because people perceived us as 'not being right, somehow'. And there was no one to turn to. And you felt so alone, it was like being in the vast universe. You felt like some kind of freak of nature, and the Church only enhanced it, and you despaired. And thought of just ending your life, and I tried it when I was seventeen. But it didn't work. The car ran out of gas.

That is one horrible thing to feel. Useless...

At least that changed.... A lot of young people won't want to kill themselves, and there are enough who do.

So am not a person who can shout out 'happy pride'. But it is nice to see younger generations not having those problems, although it isn't something widespread in the world...


Now for a witness...

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Here is a good link

to sign a petition regarding single payer health care reform. I would highly reccomend it.
Go here. You'll be glad you did.

I have never commemorated this before...

But since this is the 40th anniversary of the Stonewall riots in New York... Well, it is nice to think of the brave people who got out there into the police people's faces. Question to Obama... how much longer do you expect us to just 'wait' because you are uncomfortable with the subject entirely? When are you going to get over the idea that people of the same sex can also be romantic and make love?

And I have never been up to commenting on this before, but you know what? I never found a good clip, because the MSM WANTS to see us as the freaks, and the abnormal, or crazy people among them, like sleepers or something. So they concentrated on the flamboyant members in the community, and the others they just ignored. Or didn't show. That would be too frightening, of course....

Here's to fourty years of struggling for rights. Yes, progress has been made. But to be told to WAIT. For things that would be easy for him to 'fix' without losing face, till Congress and the Senate could fix it permanently... He or his advisors are really really, really uncomfortable and afraid of the subject.

Currently there are people who want to excorsise 'teh gay' out of teenagers, and it is all over the internets. I do not want to know how fucked up those people are going to be. Where is the difference between Iran and America, I can rightly ask. People are who they are. You have this Xtian taliban who want to impose their values on you and then do as they please in private, see Mark Sanford?

Well welcome to it... I don't understand it...

So here is a clip I can subscribe to. Forty years ago, and they all had BALLS.

Well, Colbert outdid himself....

40th Stonewall anniversary. I can not find a Youtube clip to embed. But he had me in hysterics for laughing. The satire was so biting, it was excruciatingly funny.

Freud examined the roots of humour. He came to the conclusion that people laugh because what is said actually hurts. And I have never heard anything since to refute that theory. Except that satire really aims for the bull's eye and is meant to be hurtful.

Colbert outdid himself in very few minutes summing up what is going on in the GLBT community the past week or so, and was brilliant.

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Rachel sums it up, all right....Watch

Have refrained from any comments the last six days

About the 'disappearance' of South Carolina governor Mark Sanford. Just another pecadillo by a hypocrite who ran off and had an affair.... Except... he was considered presidential candidate material, so nix that... and he was holier than thou on 'sanctity of marriage', as hypocrites always are... and he got out the scourging utensils when his mostly Republican colleagues 'strayed from the path'. We shall see if he holds himself to the rigid 'morality' he tried to impose on others, and resigns, but I doubt it. They never seem to have a sense of shame, when it comes to themselves.

Not to mention resposibility.

So yes, the Schadenfreude is really great, however sad his dilemma is.

It is always gratifying to see hypocrites shown up for what they are.

Ummm... what was that about casting the first stone? In that funny book that my grandfather used to keep locked and called 'The Book of Horrors'?

Whatever, question is whether he did it on taxpayer funding... and better to know now that he is irresposible.

My favorite comment came from Jon Stewart: His brain is conservative, but his penis is liberal.

Cracked me up.

Just another day in Hell A....

You go shopping, and then all hell breaks loose. Amis are so fucking crazy....



Fun sometimes, but crazy....

A Waltz by Leonard Cohen.... about Vienna...

I'd like to go to that concert. Our paths have crossed, but we never met.

Have been a bit silent the past few days, but there were reasons...

W. is back with a vengeance. He seemed to be doing so well, and then he went fully paranoid. Fully.

Imagine coming home, and finding someone telling you to shush, pointing to the measuring thing on the radiator, then at your turned off notebook, and whispering, 'They are listening, and hear everything.'

Uh-HUH!

I was NOT amused, believe me.

The past couple of days, he seems to be doing better. But I had to do a lot of talking and listening....

Mostly listening, come to think of it...

He is seeing a doctor, at least...

But some days am very very tired.

Am following the events in Iran, but do not wish to comment, other than to say that Obama is doing the right thing so far. And Graham, Gingrich, and their ilk are being incendiary and dangerous. Talk about trying to throw the administration under the bus that hasn't arrived yet! They should just stfu or I might be tempted to clamp the tips of their tongues with a pair of pliers.

You see? Sometimes people give you some bad ideas....

Huh.... some people are absolutely crazy

Looked at my Site Meter data, and it can be interesting, you see what people were looking for when they landed on your site. And that can be anything, really... but get few crazies, thank goodness. Today there was one who got there using the google search: 'crushing balls with pliers'.

Errrm.... I really really cannot remember using that term anywhere in a post, but who knows? Sometimes I spout off...

Creeped me out. Google isn't always your friend.

Just saying.

Oh my! Looks like I am going off on an excellent adventure...

In November, shortly before my sixtieth birthday. It doesn't seem real to me yet. Not really. The absolute WORST part of it is that I'm going to have to fly most of the way to where I am going.

I absolutely abhor flying. Absolutely. But then I get to take a train to an undisclosed location in a country I have never visited. And get the best birfday present I have ever gotten, something I have always wanted. And no, it isn't a tattoo...

I just thought... if I am going to become an official oldie in December, I'd better get a move on and do something I always wanted to do. I just got my flight confirmation in the mail. It was very inexpensive.

Am certain it will be unforgettable.

I'm glad I decided to get off my ass and stop moping, for once.

And no, it isn't anything serious. Just something I always wanted to do.

And am very happy that I have the chance to do it.

Yes, I know, cryptic. But that is all you need to know about it. Am optimistic and looking forward for a change....

Autotuning the news....

I just love these things.... was time for something amusing. The past days haven't been.

Ok, this says a lot... WUSS!

Seemingly Obama won't grant health benefits for partners of government employees, although he is supposed to be so supportive, and afraid of losing donations or something... Or it might be too expensive. Who the fuck knows at this point? (They can give billions to Wall Street and banks, but health care? No. What is wrong with this message?)

I have never seen anything so pathetic. If you don't want to commit to a cause, keep your bloody mouf shut! And show your predjudices for what they are!

Link HERE. The H word is beginning to be uppermost in my mind nowadays. And even the link to the NY Times in the article is interested. They don't seem too impressed either.

Bill Maher says some things I am currently thinking..

h/T to Joe

WTF? New rubric..... gay bashing isn't the order of the day here.

W. regressed into PTSD. I do not want to get into it. Waaay across town, and said can I take a taxi and bail him out, he couldn't pay his corfee bill, his wallet got stolen.

Swell. A thunderstorm was just ending to make it all 'fun'.

So I headed off to the taxi stand. Halfway there, he calls back, problem solved, I should go home.

So I did... Now, I had a REALLY bad morning, ok? And that didn't help my mood any. No, not at all...

And there was ths skin-head in front of me, about thirty, with his 'chum', dark-headed, pushing his bike. And this ASSHOLE, (the skin) was bragging about how he recognises all the foreigners out on the square, and going on about them. And since I was already irritated to the MAX... And got really, really angry.

So I accelerated, and got on his walking level. And said:

'You don't know fucking SHIT! And you don't know ME. And I was a foreigner, but am now an Austrian citizen, you dork!'

And he said 'Riiiight, where were you from?' And I said, 'USA'. Whereupon he replied, 'Right, and I'm from Jamaica.'

'Well, you look a little too pale for that, dork!'

Whereupon he replied, (we were at the point where I entered my door) 'Just go home, you faggot Bongo...'

And that remark caused hilarity inside of me, you know... so out of left field.... And I turned around, and said, 'Oh.... BINGO!!!.' And exited.

Now let's re-play this if it had been in my home town. True, a given, I was mad as hell, and it had background reasons. But!

If I had done something like that there... I would have ended up broken in a gutter, nearly dead, and then in hospital if I weren't.

That is the difference.

And no, am not going to take any SHIT any more. From anyone. I've lived my life, and will not let anyone denigrate it any more. But people here seem to be civil. Even if they can be stupid.

I saw a poster... Leonard Chohen is going to sing in Burgundy in Auguest....

So I looked over at You Tube and found this.



It brought back so many memories. W. loved the song but never knew what it meant. So I translated it for him, and was amazed about the text myself, because I never really paid attention to it in that way before.

Obama upholds DOMA. Follow the money.

Yup, it is always about the money, but the language is fucking awful. Link here.

This is how I am thinking and feeling as well at the moment...

The link is here.