Hokay, have been cogitating, which is never a good sign...

Planning my trip to Gamlitz on Tuesday... ooo-hah.... hoping he redcognises me...

But my tobacconist gave me an idea.... her father is going through what Peter is, and sometimes we find five minutes to say something meaningful. And I never hold her up, her place is a gold mine.

But I went ON about finding out my 'friend' on-line is only fourteen, and found it creepy. And she said, 'My brother is sixty-one, and plays games on-line, and he's the oldest in the group.' I think it's good that gemerations play games together.'

And it made me think, which isn't always my strong point if I get emotional about it... but I remembered....

Peter's nursing home has school kids come in and play board games with the oldies. I don't think it traumatises the kids.

So maybe, on the basis of the past week, what with me being the 'leader of the Boy Scouts', and finding that you can teach them things without being all stuffy pedagogue... maybe it would do him some sort of good. Don't know.

And I've learned.... you can learn from the kids as well....

Except: everything has a taint on it for us nowadays. I took care of my youngest cousins every day from their birth, and to think.... well I can't go there. And no one would give me a baby-sitting job nowadays, gawwd help me.... Since the Christian Right painted everyone gay as pedophiles, and 'thank you, Rick Sanatorium, Crazy Eyes Bachman, who should look in the mirror at her friggin' husband, and that harpy from NOM...

The one thing they did was to make us feel guilty to be 'around' a child. And it spreads, hey. Our neighbors with Anna? They were fine with me, but hoo-boy, I wouldn't have DARED to touch her in any way whatsoever, not even to pick her up when she fell down. And one day we were out in the court, and her stroller was off balance the stones were all raggedy, but her mother didn't notice. So I was leaning on it, to keep it steady, and she was worming around in it. There were five people she was talking too, and she finally picked Anna up, and I stood up.... and the carriage fell over.

'So THAT's why you did that....'

'What the hell were YOU thinking?' And I went upstairs.

See?

I would never harm a child ever.

So am of two minds about this. And it saddens me.